Seven years ago I started writing Seeds. Then it was a gardening blog. I had begun growing food and native plants, and I wanted a place to record my successes and failures and to have a forum for participating in the garden blogging community. Then, after both of my children were born, all of my energy went into parenting, into nurturing the seeds of small human people, and this blog lay fallow for a while.
A couple of years ago, when I began identifying as Pagan, I realized that this blog was about something more than gardening or parenting. Here was a space to write about the seeds of practice, my beginning experiences in a holistic way of living consciously closer to the land beneath my feet and the air enveloping my body. I worked through the exercises in Starhawk’s book Earth Path, I walked creeks as often as I could, I dedicated myself to learning the names of the trees, flowers, and birds that I met. I set up an altar and began a daily devotional to my ancestors. A little over a year ago, I began sitting for regular observation and meditation in a small urban wood near my home. There the living land itself trained me up in the ways of the elements and cyclical change. Recently I’ve completed the Reclaiming core course Elements of Magic, I’ve begun writing a regular column for Humanisticpaganism.com, and I’ve joined my local community garden. A first chapter is ended and a new one begun. I’ve planted the seeds of my practice, of a lifeway in intentional relationship with Gaia, the living earth, and with several other members of the witches’ pantheon. Now it’s time to nurture those seeds.
I believe in consciously closing the circles I’ve opened, once they’ve served their purpose. And one can’t live in the intensity of beginner’s mind forever; I have children to feed and educate, a nursing degree to finish, a career to establish, a hearth to tend, more Reclaiming core courses to complete, a column to write, and alliances and practices to develop. I have a lot more creek stomping, moon gazing, and compost turning to do. As much as I look forward to all the juiciness ahead, it will be bittersweet to archive Seeds. The readers here have changed with the focus. I don’t get many comments, nor do I look at site stats or traffic analysis, so I have no idea who might still be reading this. But to everyone who has read even a little along the way: thank you for bearing witness.
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